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I feel weird

This Saturday marks the second year since my friend's suicide.  I feel weird.  I've been short-tempered and depressed, and thought it was all about PMS. Yes, that makes it even more...special.  Both of these events snuck up on me.
I've got his ashes still.  I don't want them anymore.  I don't know what to do with them.  I've had some ideas, like making an urn out of his ashes, breaking the fancy one they're in and using the pieces to inlay the words "FUCK YOU" on it.  I've suggested this as a piece for my sculpture class, but it was judged "too personal".  Really.  I ask you. 
I've got to get them out of my closet.  I feel like mixing the ashes with my tears, my piss, my menstrual blood, to make the clay.  That personal enough?
Bastard.

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Posted on 02/07/2006 3:24 PM Visits: 37
yoko: 02/07/2006 3:41 PM
Why do you want to get rid off the ashes?
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schvetybetty: 02/07/2006 3:57 PM
I think they're bad luck...I think it's creepy. They should at least be sprinkled or...I don't know. They feel so cursed to me that I hate to leave them anywhere. They need some serious mojo before they can be let loose.
That was a good question.
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yoko: 02/07/2006 4:11 PM
Yeh... it is actually pretty creepy. How did you end up the privledged one to keep the ashes? That is freakin weird vibe to have around in your home... what did he enjoy doing while he was here? I think an art piece would be cool...
I wonder if he is at peace now...
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thequixotic1: 02/07/2006 4:23 PM
Oh honey

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torpedoes and mine-fields and menstration (Oh my!)
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thequixotic1: 02/07/2006 4:26 PM
Oh honey

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torpedoes and mine-fields and menstruation (Oh my!)
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thequixotic1: 02/07/2006 4:36 PM
So weird. I've commented on this twice now, and neither seems to exist. :(
Maybe they'll show later.
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dfduck: 02/07/2006 5:50 PM
Donate him, urn intact, to Goodwill or Salvation Army.
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freakpowertix: 02/07/2006 5:55 PM
Strange one. Comments just popped up after being invisible, after Yoko's first comment, but showing up in the counter on the right... But here they are again.

Messaged you, sb...for what that's worth... that whole gremlin glitchiness made me doubt the efficacy of posting anyways... I'm going to think about this for a while...

hugs, ted.
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schvetybetty: 02/07/2006 6:12 PM
Well, I can see you...

Thanks, everyone...

duck! ahhhhahhahaha! I'm truly considering this. That would be FUNNY!
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axa13: 02/07/2006 6:34 PM
I don't know what to advise you.

I so know that if I can't arrange a (Central Asian) 'sky burial' I want my own ashes sifted along with those of Hawk and Pinga. The larger pieces put into a double sided shaman's drum, then, the fine dust and drum handed over to some Tibetan Lama.

Maybe: Let the local Tibetan or Thai monks take care of them ? I'm sure they will do a fine job.
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dfduck: 02/07/2006 6:37 PM
Always happy to help when I can. *evil grin*
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and she was: 02/07/2006 6:37 PM
My heart is yours.
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counterculture from the underground: 02/07/2006 6:47 PM
bury him under a tree and never go back there.
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schvetybetty: 02/07/2006 6:50 PM
Ahhh!

I lost some of your comments!

Duck, thanks, agin...muwaahhahahahah...

Yoko, he was divided into five Urns. Me, his boyfriend, mom, brother, dad? I think...It was his boyfriend's decision to share. He bought all the urns.

I can't reach any of them now, and they haven't responded to my messages in over a year-and-a-half.

I've had lots of weird electronic/electric/energy things happen since yesterday; the building's hot water heater died...the bulb blew out in my bedroom sconce tonight, blew out another bulb, and the next one made the whole place flicker. I'm thinking Josh (yes, YOU, Josh) wants to get the fuck out of that hideous 'Chinese' urn. The blue and white $200 kind from some place in the mall...Oh, my car has been weird, too. What? Whatt???!!!!
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freakpowertix: 02/07/2006 6:55 PM
stick with it: comments will show up in the roll call, but not when you try to reply!

then they appear later... i'm pretty sure it's been like that for a few days now.

gremlinses!!! sometimes, i think they're there for a reason.
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